Anonymous said: As crazy as it sounds, learning to be happy being alone is the first step towards having meaningful a relationship. If you can't look at yourself in the mirror and say, "I love the person I am", then it would be selfish to expect someone else to love you. Surround yourself with friends while you discover who you want to be as a person. Once you are truly content with being alone will you be able to open yourself up to another person in return. And that person will be in love with the real you.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m content with the person that I am! I think this summer has been a coming of age period where I’ve been away from home and able to enjoy being on my own. I’ve just been feeling, recently, that people are wanting to be around me because they expect something from me. It’s different than being at home with my close friends who are just with me because they like being around me and they aren’t demanding anything from me. Maybe the people I’ve been exposed to in college haven’t had the greatest intentions and that’s starting to bother me. It’s easy for me to be alone, but it’s when somebody tries to break down the barrier and be in my life that usually throws me.
But I guess all this comes with getting older. You meet people who are going to change your life for the better and those who have nothing but their own agendas at heart. Maybe it’s learning to distinguish the difference and keep the good ones that’s important.